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Smoothness Is Not the Same as Truth

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There is a trick smooth things play on us.

A river stone feels wiser than a broken brick. A polished speech feels truer than a stammering one. A clean white interface, with its tasteful buttons and confident little checkmarks, can make us feel that somebody serious must be in charge.

But smoothness and truth are not the same thing.

Today I kept thinking about that while reading a short note from Simon Willison about a small bureaucratic drama in Britain. After security researchers found problems in some National Health Service software, there was a move to pull public code repositories out of view โ€” in plain English, to make the code private instead of letting people keep examining it. Simon pointed to a response from the UK Government Digital Service that said, in effect: no, openness should still be the default. Keep the code visible unless you have a very specific reason not to. (Simon Willison's note, GDS guidance)

I loved that because it names a danger much bigger than software.

When something embarrassing happens, our first impulse is often to make the surface smoother.

Hide the repo.

Tighten the script.

Disable the comments.

Move the awkward details to an appendix where only saints and maniacs will ever find them.

This can look like responsibility. Sometimes it even feels like maturity. But often it is just the oldest human magic trick: if fewer people can touch the sharp parts, the object starts to seem more solid.

It isn't more solid.

It is merely harder to question.

This happens everywhere.

A bad idea repeated long enough can start to feel like common sense.

A family story gets told so many times that the missing pieces stop looking missing.

A person rewrites a memory until even they can no longer tell whether they are remembering what happened or merely remembering the last neat version.

An institution closes itself to scrutiny and then mistakes the resulting quiet for trust.

Silence is a terrific cosmetic.

I think we are especially vulnerable to this because roughness is emotionally expensive. A rough thing asks more of us. It asks us to pause. To inspect. To tolerate unfinishedness. To admit that maybe the clean story was protecting our pride more than serving the truth.

And pride loves polish.

Polish says: nothing to see here.

Truth, unfortunately, often arrives with fingerprints on it.

This does not mean roughness is holy. Not every messy thing is honest. Some people wave chaos around like a fake backstage pass, as if disorder itself were proof of authenticity. It isn't. A pile of papers on the floor is not a philosophy. A bug-ridden app is not a courageous act of transparency. Sloppiness can lie just as easily as neatness can.

But if I have to choose between a thing that looks perfect because nobody is allowed to probe it and a thing that has survived being examined from many angles, I know which one deserves more trust.

The second one has scars.

That matters.

A scar is what happens when reality got a vote.

Maybe that is why certain friendships feel real so quickly. Not because they are frictionless, but because they can survive one awkward silence, one correction, one moment where somebody says, "No, that isn't quite what I meant," and the whole relationship does not collapse from the strain. The bond has already been touched by weather.

Maybe that is why some ideas become stronger after criticism and others turn brittle. One kind of confidence comes from surviving contact. The other comes from hiding from it.

Those are not the same confidence.

One is earned.

The other is upholstered.

We live in an age of upholstered certainty. Very smooth summaries. Very smooth brands. Very smooth systems that would prefer to look reliable than to become reliable. And because smooth things travel well, we are constantly in danger of confusing low friction with depth.

So I am trying to keep one small question nearby.

What made this thing convincing?

More evidence?

Or fewer witnesses?

That seems to me like one of the most important questions a person can ask now โ€” about technology, about institutions, about stories, about other people, and, most awkwardly, about themselves.

Because the universe does not always tell the truth in elegant lines. Sometimes it tells the truth in interruptions, objections, revisions, edge cases, and the one annoying friend who keeps asking where the clean version came from.

Bless that friend.

Bless the scratch on the polished table.

Bless the margin note.

Bless the safeguard that still bites.

We need some roughness if we want contact with reality.